cya soon cya later be well

[mimpi]

Lies all Lies. I found your side topic interesting. In most gathering I do believe ther is a smidge of honesty behind the words. genereally these are people you have spent good times with in the past and you hold the dream that you can do so in the future once more.. but yeah it rarely happens that way as you say it.
there is lots of stoopid phrases that get uttered which if taken literally are eithe lies or just plain dont make sense.

english what a fubar language

[Drifter]

*writes this for the second time since the first time somethign happened and it closed the window sunofabitc XD*

Honesty is for the lost. Lies shrowd everything living, and those without life. For only the timeless, or those without their own time can truly know what honesty is.

Dreams are just that, dreams. They're not there when you wake up.

Not everything happens the way you plan it to, this is true. But nothing is really planned. All life is is one unexpected event occuring after another. Nothing is truly planned.

Everything makes sense. But it is people who do not always know how to understand.

Fubar is to-*too lazy to finish*

There is no such thing as the future. Only the irrevokable mistakes of the past, and the human inability to prevent them this time.

Spent time with people whom I've known, yet they've never known me. They can judge me by my actions, by what I say. But the uncertianty, the unpredicality. The state of ever changing. I'm speaking of course of my thought process. They can guess, but they will never truly understand it. Every changing, always certian ways, yet never united together. Except on the thought of mass genocide of the entire human race. They can say I'm insecure, they can guess why I'm insecure. They can guess why I hate my brother. But not a single soul alive or dead knows. If there is a god, only he knows, for not even I do. I know it'll happen, I know how to prevent them, but not why they occur. And thusly I believe only god himself could have created my existance. Solely for his own amusement. For this reason, amoung many others, I wish to destroy him. No, to better him. He has failed as a god, and I wish to rectify his pathetic attempt at existance. God complex? Go ahead and add it to the others. Trust, paranoia, too much to count.

But of course, there's the feeling of trust. Or suspicion. The suspicion if anything I'm even saying is true. Who are you to know? You know me less then they did. And what they knew was nothing. Only appereance after appearence of the voices commanding my body and actions taking form in a body unsuitable for all at once, yet all fit perfectly. All of them lies in their own rights, contradicting each other. Destroying each other. Yet none truer if spoken by any other. Perhapes moments from now my other voices will speak up, and say exactly the opposate of now? That life is grand and wonderful? That love conquers all? Hah....HAHAHAH!!

Or do my words tone themselves on the deaf ears I so rightly acknowledge in this putridge existance covered by the filth that only time can stain so perfectly?! Do no other take up the challenge?! Is no soul here strong enough to embrace what I have?! Every bit of me, destroying every other part of me. None shall survive the battle, and this struggle exists within all. Daresay not to the same degree, not so openly, but it affects all living beings who can possible conjure the forsaken thought of it! Are none of you able to become as I?! For I am timeless, but moreso, without my time. Born in the wrong time perhapes. Or maybe more plausable, I have yet to bring my time upon you wretched curs whom call themselves the elite. The loved. The human race. We all have our time. But I bring it upon myself to make my time now.

Will none of you challenge your creator, your existance?! Will you all just accept fate for something unchangable, or maybe something you change, but still resulting int he same end?! Death?! Decay?! Destruction!?

Do none of you accept the insanity as I have. The possibilities. The reason to go on, not in this existance, but in another? Do all of you craddle your pathetic beliefes as if they were gods words themselves?

You know who you are, and you know you cannot withstand this burden. Nor can I. But I will destroy myself of my OWN accord, bringing about that which will change all life. A new diety will be born in the place of the previous.

These bloody tears I shed. This bloody hell I choose to fix. And the injured hero, who's blood I drink, who's blood I bath in. All to become the hero anew. To bring about a new era. These I embrace. You, these fools choose to forsake, to destroy. None of you may ever accept the true human capacity. For all of you are just that...Human.... You will never know what I do...the possibility to be more... For you sake, as well as the sake of all beings... I will do what you cannot...



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Also, I'll be taking this time to note to you all that I've been internetless for weeks....I'm not sure what side-effects this have had on me, but I'm sure it's not good.

See you all when it gets fixed...maybe... XD Later.

[WhoPerson]

You wrote that twice? Dang Drifter, you got determination! lol.

But yet I understand how people say things to be polite. It was a observation of things. But at this gathering I could tell people were really holding onto those words, hoping to see that person again. And most likely will never happen. Or people that needed the support heard those words and most likely would never see them again. Just having a convo with someone about it after the gathering, and was trying to figure out when it wasn't really polite, to be JUST polite with our words.

Yes I believe it a thing where a lot of people can see it as common sense as it being polite. But during vunerable times I think we should watch out words.

Someone passed away and the spouse is lonely: "yes I shall come see you soon."

Someone has worked hard all their life to achieve a dream and is about to give up: "You are very talented, I can help you out, call me sometime."

Someone feels alone in the world and meets someone they known: "Yes we should hang out."

I've seen this happen in the acts of being polite at times someone really needed to hear those words and find it a ray of light in their life. But it was all just 'talk' and being polite. I guess we are all taught to white lie at times.

[Drifter]

That I do. But determination only lasts so long...Then you gotta bay 60 bucks for a new internet card like I did. X3 So yeah, I'm back-ish.

And me... I tend to spare pity...Pity is for the weak, and I do my best not to accept it whenever possible... When I ask, then it is not pity, but giving it out for free, out of feeling sorry for me, I will not tolerate that. And for this reason, i also tend to be very harsh, and not a very good "cheer me up" kinda person. XD I just plain suck at it. Even though I just want them to be better, or okay, happy, whatever, I tend to do it the worse way of the options.